things I would like to do with you.
First of all,
I would like to hold your hand.
I want to hold your hand when we watch movies, or when we’re grocery shopping, or waiting in a line, or taking a drive.
I want to grab it when you’re least expecting and then you’ll look at me with a smile and squeeze my hand harder.
I would like to pack a picnic.
Find a hill, or a grassy area on a cool & sunny day and just eat and laugh and swap funny stories. I will watch your face light up with joy as we just sit and enjoy God’s creation & each other.
I would like to give you letters.
I’ll spend hours upon hours of my life writing them to you, giving them to you when you expect it and when you don’t. And you’ll come find me when you’re done reading it, and you’ll wrap me in a hug and kiss my forehead and thank me for simply writing my thoughts on a piece of paper for you.
I would like to create a fort with you.
Fill it with blankets and pillows and Christmas lights and lay in it for hours and hours, pretend we’re kids again. Pretend we have no worries.. All we have to do is enjoy our fort and enjoy each other.
I would like to marry you.
And in this marriage, I would like to choose you every day. Choose your faults and flaws. I would like to show you unconditional love every moment of every day. I will mess up, and I’ll keep learning and so will you. I would like to be that, and do that.
In this marriage, I want to fall asleep with you. I want to be able to kiss you whenever I please. I want to cook for you, and I want to hear you say, “This tastes so good, honey!” I want to watch our favorite TV shows together and I would really like a white picket fence.
I would like to watch wrinkles ease their way onto your face, and see little white hairs appear on your head here and there.
I would like to praise Jesus all the days of our life together.
I would like that.
I would like that a lot.
"In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul."
"Imagine how a man’s life would be if he trusted that he was loved by God. How could he interact with the poor and not show partiality, he could love his wife easily and not expect her to redeem him, he would be slow to anger because redemption was no longer at stake, he could be wise and giving with his money because money no longer represented points, he could give up on formulaic religion, knowing that checking stuff off a spiritual to-do list was a worthless pursuit, he would have confidence and the ability to laugh at himself, and he could love people without expecting anything in return. It would be quite beautiful, really."
I want this to be the essence of non-believers’ understanding of what Christians are like—and if that’s ever gonna happen, it’s gonna have to start with me choosing to not settle for mediocre; to let this quote be a change evoker instead of an ego-stroker. When words spark a light, you must fan it into vitality, feeding it until it becomes a chosen reality—a force of intentionality that’s rooted in conviction and blooming proof of redemption. I am inspired to be rewired by the gospel’s desires that should never expire because my life was meant to transpire the love and the grace that I’ve claimed to embrace.